Boy, oh BOYS!

… funny now life works..

I have crushed on the same boy since gr 9. on and off we were. We finally hooked up before I left for a trip at the beginning of the year and I came back with with boyfriend? ekkk. I think it was for the best, if we had dated when I returned then I would have never wanted to go to school for art in  BC. But he has tracked me down and FINALLY confessed his feelings well I am 4 provinces away. I cant focus all I want to do it talk to him. see him. cuddle him. he was always the best cuddlier. Such a cutie. sigh…. 8 more days will I see this boy again. I feel really bad for pushing the other boy out of my life… but we were going to different paths and I never saw them on the same one. Such an amazing guy, just he isnt for me. He is going to make some girl an amazing wife one day and be an amazing dad. I am just to young for that in my life. I seek so much adventure. I am moving to much. Which is my other issue with lover boy at him. I want him. I would be with him, but once again when would those paths ever cross? I love simplicity yet I have a hard time finding it. I would love to have a to come home to and cuddle me all night. kiss my eye lids and tell me everything will be alright.

School is my life right now, it needs to be. I am a good student too. I have no life. my life is art.

Rant! haha I am so lalalalala right now and well… I love it :)

Night!